Day 162 - Progress is Progress

Mood: Restless

Weight: 155 lbs

Pant Size: 12

Today is Thursday, November 10, 2011. It's been 42 days since my last confession post. Good news: I've lost another 5 lbs. Even though my November 1st goal was 140, I'm not looking at it as being behind. This is not all about numbers, and I have to remember that.


The past month was a mess of emotions. After the sudden death of a friend (we weren't close, but it was still a very shocking & terrible loss to everyone who knew him) and the end of a nearly 2-year relationship, I didn't give a fuck about my health. In some very brief dark moments, I didn't give a fuck about my life. I don't like admitting that, but it was true. Luckily, deep down I really do value my life & realize I was just feeling sorry for myself. It's another one of those bad habits I need to break.


In addition to all of that, I spent only a few hours out of the entire month at home. I house-sat for some friends which added almost 2 hours to my daily commute, and started working 10-hour days. I'm actually glad/surprised I didn't lose more than 5 lbs because it would surely been due to all the stress. I tend to not eat at all when I'm going through negative emotions & busy schedules, but somehow I kept from slipping too far back. Even though I ate fast food & hardly exercised, I didn't do so in the same unhealthy quantities as before.


Clothes are still getting smaller. My body-confidence & self-esteem are still improving daily. I'm determined to get back on track working out & building my energy level back up. I'm committed to losing another 30 lbs before the end of the year. That's more than 4 lbs a week! Do you think I can do it?


Well, thanks for reading, & if you have a moment I could really use your encouragement to get through this slump.

p.s. I finally own a plant! It was a gift from the people I house-sat for... Also, a good reminder to look for something that makes you happy today. I hope you do and are as often as possible. <3